December 01, 2025



Earlier this morning I was charging my phone around 9am, and then I went straight up to my computer to practise my SQL and the reports. I was busy for a moment, and then around 11am I was ready to unplug my phone because I thought it was already fully charged, but no, it was not; it was still 0%. Wtf. I was very sad, and then I took a deep breath to relax myself because I have anger issues and I am easily irritated. So my phone is still 0%. I go back to work and practice. Here is my 2nd problem: I was overjoyed that the SQL and report already work because I spent my time practising, and it works. So I chat with this guy, the one who has knowledge about this position in this work – let's say a former report developer – and I'm the new one, a noob. I want to learn so much; it's fun to build up my skills so I can create my own, enjoying these skills, and unfortunately I took a screenshot on a desktop computer to update him, and then he was kind of disappointed in me. Yeah, I already know that because I'm a noob and nobody. Instead of teaching me what I did wrong or telling me what I'm supposed to change so I can have an idea, no, he just laughs and spits out, "Yes, you're wrong; what you showed me is not okay." I was like, "Huh?" So meanwhile, I was so desperate to know what the ways are, or if you can teach me, but he is too slow to reply. but he still laughs at me. I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm so stupid; I'm not very smart, haha. I want to cry, but I'm still at work. I want to learn so bad. Yeah, I'm gaining knowledge little by little, like baby steps. I wish I was born smart, but I'm not.



sincerely,

✮ 🎀🍀 𝐿𝓊𝒸𝓀𝓎𝓁𝑒𝒶𝒻 🍀🎀 ✮

November 28, 2025



For the past few weeks, I haven't posted any artwork on TikTok, DeviantArt, my Facebook page, or my website. im I'mstruggling to get up to bed –I'm too muchbed –many household chores, pending self-projs, lamanyself-projects,ckself-projects,lacking of creativity in website, strlackthe website,uggling to do some art piece cuz of cthe website,pieces becausehores, pieces becausechores –my brother is a burden chores –burden;he doesnt burden;doesn'thelp me doesn'tme;he is so lazy.



I dunnome; I dunno what I dunno what to do TT_TT. I want to cry. I know I'm losing followers on TikTok, but all I want is to share my work and have someone appreciate my art.



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November 11, 2025



its been a while since I wrote a entry#6 blog, I often active in spacehey and blogs due to my business at work and daily routine. I havent upload on tiktok about my paintings cuz i really need to rest my eyes

( ;´ - `;) and im always forget my eyeglasses.



I kind of bored on Halloween Day cuz I'm lack of sleep but I wanna go outside for fun so me and my cousin went to mall enjoy ourself then I bought make up, went to nail salon, starbucks and we got mcdo happy meal bts which is suga(for me) and jimin(for my cousin) also i bought a book from fullybooked in Ph im so happy hehe...

my other makeup is already expired sooo i switch up make up brand, im not here to flex what i bought some stuff im just expressing cuz of my hardworks in work i deserve to treat my self and i can buy something i want and dream to something to buy (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)..i always treat my parents, my lil bro, my grandparents and my dearly beloved cousin (she's a girl btw)... my cousin recommended me some make up brand for oily skin which is i already have fave make up brand:

dazzle me, blk cosmetics, jmcy cosmetics, issy cosmetics, zeesa (ithink), happy skin and grwm cosmetic those are the local make up in ph i want and deffinetly recos. i only have make up that is not local is maybelline and flomar :>.

idk y im so happy when i talked about makeup, books, foods, and clothes (˶˃ᆺ˂˶).

i love the color of #EE6983 and #E06B80 anythihk but pink not neon pink i like soft pink or pastel pink hehe. i love color black, forest mossy green, matcha color and brown hehe....



after a week a dude named jay is nowhere to be seen or like he didnt appear (sorry my eng is broke hahahahha) i think im safe cuz i feel sus for him uhuh so fishy ദ്ദി ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ )...



yeah anyways im so depressed i wanna buy or go out having fun eating foodie yah know sorry im not good at eng hehe. in here in PH so many people suffered from typhoon supper rainy days and floods, so many people die even elderly and kids. i wish theres a ways to execute corrupt government so the ph or not just ph other country too to have peace and happy safe place. it breaks my heart whenever i saw people dying.



ps: im lack of sleep again i want 13 hrs of sleep huhuhu.





sincerely,

🍀 𝐿𝓊𝒸𝓀𝓎𝓁𝑒𝒶𝒻🍀

October 29, 2025

OMG!!!!

in the past weeks me and my mom we're cool now, so many things happened idk where to start

ꉂ (´∀｀)ʱªʱªʱª my dad is doing good and he needs to take care of his health im bit too worried about my dad. anyways in the past few weeks ive been broken hearted, me and my crush we're busy but i just want to talk to him or want to notice me but unfortunately he keeps talking and he didn't see my massages. i rant to my friends she got worried and confront him but my crush offended idk what my friend said to him but i apologize quick me and my friend. he almost cut ties with me so i was shocked like in my mind tells me "he really gonna do that to me? i tot i was his favorite person?" so i cried a lot his words pierced me like a dagger knife i know its hurt but it is what it is. i decided to not talk to him for a while cuz i think he needs to clear his head (i hope) EVENTUALLY! in the past few weeks i wanna take a break i cried evry night cuz of him so i solo date my self and need to be alone for a whileeee it feels good btw. i got pure matcha latte frape in the Starbucks and also a card im so happy it feels like i already forgot him haha cuz im wayy too focus to myself. okay lets forget about that crush!, SCREWW THISSSS FEELINGSSS!!!....



october 29, 2025 around 7:57 it happened again idk why he knows me cuz it happened yesterday he talk right in front of me and he takes me to my working place he said he gonna go now. like uhuh okay is he a guardian angel ? cuz whenever i walked its always 7:51 or 55am almost 8am cuz im reaalllyy reaallly late so there he popped out somewhere idk y HAHHAHAHH. and it happened again but this time i ask what is his name? are u the one i saw when it earthquake drill stuff? are u kuya bernie (i tot his dat man who gave me money worth 100php in philippines money he helped me booked so i can go home.) but he is not kuya bernie wtf huhu who is HEEE!!! HOW DA HELL HE KNOWS ME HAHAHHAHA im freaking out so hard but happy at the same time HHAHAHAHAH. he said his name is JAY and he work to the other side of the company and he is not from flexible gosh dangit i tot he is kuya BERNIE! he has similar face to kuya bernie wtf. its sooooo longgg story HHAHAHA my supervisor saw me to the street but sadly i didnt notice him so he left sad (╥‸╥) but thatsss fineeeeee atleast the kuya JAY saw me hehe. tomorrow im gonna do my nails im so excited YEYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!! ITS ME TIMEEEEE!!!!



sincerely,

🍀 𝐿𝓊𝒸𝓀𝓎𝓁𝑒𝒶𝒻🍀

October 08, 2025



I've talked a lot to my friend online almost every day, and sometimes I missed the replies due to work, household chores and cooking a meal. i dont even have a time for myself i miss to draw and update to my tiktok art chanel :< i hope i dont get lost followers. My grandma and grandpa came to visit me because they worried a lot since Mom flew to another country just to take care of Papa. Papa has stage 4 cancer, but the doctor said it's curable. I hope cancer is gone so Mama will be happy again and Papa will be healthy. :>.



sincerely,

🍀 𝐿𝓊𝒸𝓀𝓎𝓁𝑒𝒶𝒻🍀

October 06, 2025



Yesterday, it was only me and my little brother at home since Mom was out of the country doing something important. As part of our usual routine, we did some chores in the morning, and I cooked breakfast. Mom and Dad called just to check on us, and Mom told me she was going to have food delivered through Grab. Of course, why not? So my brother and I ended up having inasal for both breakfast and dinner—classic Philippines vibes.



At lunch, I was supposed to cook sitaw with pork, but my Tito gave us ulam, so I didn’t need to cook. Later, we went out to buy some chips because I was craving, and luckily the store wasn’t that far. Afterward, we went home, ate the chips, and rested so we could get ready for church.



By 5 PM, it was time to prepare. An hour later, we bought isaw, chicharon bulaklak, and hotdogs—they were cheap but super yummy. I had ₱1,000, and Kuya only needed ₱40, so I went to a store to buy something just to get coins. After that, I gave him ₱40, and we went home.



At dinner, we ate and chatted as usual. After eating, we did some chores, but I got irritated—probably mood swings (ദ്ദി ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ). My little bro finished washing the dishes while I started looking for my work uniform for tomorrow. Turns out his uniform was missing. He had another pair, but sadly it was still in the dirty laundry, so he had to wash it.



Meanwhile, I was on my phone minding my business when my cat came up and sneezed on me. I thought my cat was sick because I felt something watery, but it turned out my little bro forgot to turn off the faucet! That bastard! Tsk. I got so mad and cursed at him. I had to clean up his mess—the laundry baskets were wet, but thankfully the clothes inside were still dry.



After that, I went upstairs and told Mom what happened because I needed some comfort. I was really stressed, but she just talked nonsense, so I ended up crying—a lot, HAHAHA. At least Dad comforted me, and I hope my anger finally calms down. Honestly, I think I have anger issues because when someone doesn’t follow my orders (utos), I completely lose control (╥ᆺ╥;).

So yeah, worst Sunday weekend ever. WAT DA HELLLLL!!!!! (╥ᆺ╥;)





P.S. I’m planning to move out and live independently soon. Any tips for moving out safely?





Sincerely,

🍀 𝐿𝓊𝒸𝓀𝓎𝓁𝑒𝒶𝒻🍀

October 1, 2025



Its already Oct and 3 months to go before Christmas, i hope mom will come home soon cuz its been 3 days when she is out of a country she need to take care my dad his sick. my adobo that i cooked earlier tasted suck too ｡°(°¯᷄◠¯᷅°)°｡ im not good at cooking its only tyamba (lucky). what food should i cooked tomorrow i hope it taste better than my adobo ( ;´ - `;)



sincerely,

🍀 𝐿𝓊𝒸𝓀𝓎𝓁𝑒𝒶𝒻🍀

I made a new fwends on Spacehey and im so glad they are nice people and kawaii page and pfp but recenetly i got block by 16 yr old lady she is plipina like me i always think if i did something wrong unfortunately not. ugh!!! i hope shes okay im worried about her.. anywaysss recently im struggling to get up evry morning. also a lot happened yesterday. so as a working independent(not really cuz i lived to my parents house) i order a food in foodpanda so we can stay at house that was for lunch at 12pm and i thinkkk i ordered a lot cuz the chimken thigh too big and lots of java rice but yummy and we ate that at dinner so it was worth it. around 10pm someone chat me it was a foreigner india or arabic cant tell, i ask him who is he adn he said its a very a long time so im be like huh? and i ask him where is the proof, andddd he said last conversation around yr 2022 so it was like 4 yrs i dont remmeber wat kind a conversation. and i feel uncomfortable cuz he begs to send a my picture to him, i tell him no. i feel safe for now i hope he doesnt bother me anymore heheh..



sincerely,

🎀 𝐿𝓊𝒸𝓀𝓎𝐿𝑒𝒶𝒻 🎀

September 25, 2025



eyyy!!! first post!!..

Why im so early at work ∘ ∘ ∘ ( °ヮ° ) ?

i didnt see the time so i tot im bit late buttt unfortunately im so early (╥‸╥)...

im so sleepy, im procrastinate a lot and i need to finish my pending projs and website..

1 week ago i feel something touching me even tho theres not someone besides me, i keep seeing things like a ghost or white lady in the second floor this is the 4th or fifth time.. belive it or not i have a little ability to feel them i didnt see them but i knew there always see me or they alawys around. there is a one time ghost followed me or idk if its a ghost or entity, he followed me in the house all the way home idk why i think his tripping but he didnt harm me and my fam, u know why i he followed me? welp! i suddenly feel heavy and its kinda annoying feeling i think his a bad aura and mom told me that her frend told her that someone following me so i tot im hallucinating but it turns out its true im not bluffing its cap guys. so i told my mom that ignore him cuz he will do something worse if u keep see mention him or if he saw him, alright change topic ꉂ (≧ヮ≦) im too bored at work and i hope theres a task (i hope its not a lot of task)okayyyy ill update u gois wats going on in my life, byeee!!





sincerely, 

✮  🎀🍀  𝐿𝓊𝒸𝓀𝓎𝓁𝑒𝒶𝒻  🍀🎀  ✮