My thoughts on love



My thoughts on love has changed a lot as I've aged. I grew up with lovey dovey animes so I suppose it was normal for baby Pardis to fantasize about falling in love. Whether that be pokemon XYZ, doki doki glitter force / precure, or whatever else I watched there was always a tint of love. 

But younger Pardis wasn't just exposed to straight people ; I've had a lot of exposure to gay people my entire life. Majority of my early elementary school years was riddled with yaoi and Yuri and the taboo of two people of the same gender falling for one another. I never thought of it as taboo. For a while I'd only make stories with gay lovers, mostly women, because that's simply what I preferred. 

As I got older, especially 3-6 grade that's when I started noticing it's not as "normal" as I had that and that I was apparently the weird one for wanting a relationship with another girl. I would consistently get into fights with my mother on my sexuality. Having crushes on girls was strictly forbidden in this house

Ironically as I've advanced almost to high school I've been in a, hopefully, long term relationship with this cute boy (dont worry, he didn't 'turn me straight' I've been and forever will be bisexual to the test of time) but I find it very funny I've come full circle in my life. I'm now living what feels like an anime romance comedy. That makes me really really happy. 



Now that's just my experiences with love, what about my thoughts on it? 

I think love is tricky

Love is passion

Love is commitment

Love is... Difficult

Anything can be love. You can love your cat, you can love a color, you especially love your enemies. The more effort and care and hope you put into something the more you love it. Especially the hope part. You could have the most depressing nihilistic outlook on life but if you hope for a better life you yourself will love life more. People who are actually happy don't wake up for a better tomorrow; they wake up so tomorrow's yesterday seems worse. 

There's a quote I hate.

"You must love yourself first before you can love others"

I think this quote helped build the "me-me-me" community we have today. Love isn't something you build for someone. We all have love for everyone. Actions, words, trust, can nourish or neglect it. My boyfriend found me when I was down in the dumps in everything. Hygiene, addiction, I literally had no friends. 

You need someone to love you before you can truly love yourself. 

Your mother

Your lover

Your friends

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