woke up several times. i felt a little guilty that i got out of bed yet, but my dreams were a lot of fun so it doesnt really feel like i wasted any time. some bad parts as usual but most of them were alright. i was at a resort with friends in one of them

My head hurts, I want a pepsi.

Today scrubbed my dakimakura. She was turning a little yellowish in the areas where I rest my head on her. But doesn't that just make her look more authentically Japanese? In any case I did some scrubbing and she's in the dryer now. It reminds me of those old Calvin & Hobbes strips where Calvin is waiting for Hobbes to come out of the washing machine.



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aaahh!!! i have no internet... have had no internet for 3 days. there was a maintenance and now an outage in our area. i am frustrated because i am using a lot of mobile data to hotspot things. but my pc does not play well with the hotspot, so i have not been able to work on my site.

frustrating since it's my current hyperfixation!

i spent the other day catching up chores and today i have been painting the living room, so i guess i have been productive in its absence, but still...

i am quite frustrated with it not being fixed.

in other news, i forgot my painkillers for work last night and really suffering the consequences. im glad someone could take my shift today, so my feet could rest a bit.

when people say they want to go back to times when some subtypes of people didn't exist, you have pictures and artifacts to prove that this isn't true. people had tattoos in the 50s. we had colourful hair dyes in the 1600s. there are recipes to "restore virginity" and "fix cracked lips from too much kissing" from the 1200s. people were bleaching their hair and dressing "edgy" ways in the times of diodorus. pre-colonisation indigenous societies had gnc people, gay, and bisexual people, which were persecuted by the spaniards. trans people have existed since ancient times under different labels. and we know this because people bothered to take pictures, to write, to make art, and to preserve archives. i don't want people in the 2070s to lament for times when i didn't exist, when my friends didn't exist, because no proof remained.

I want a jdm car lol.

finally embedded my diary to my neocities! for now it lives over at the index page of my library https://baalbek.neocities.org/angellibrary/ where i'll be moving most of my writings

Hello! Please also check out: https://nikki.top/widgets/webbanana.php ! web banana is a old old script that is a word association game. You start from one word (banana) then you write what that makes you think of. It's pretty cool. The orginal author of the script is on page, but his website seems to be down, the way back machine seems to work.

Please check out the private messaging! On the header, there is "pm" and "inbox". You can PM, and people can PM you.

it feels nice to donate money to causes i care about. i wish i had more to donate more - sometimes idk if it's better to spread out my donations or give more to a few



i forgot to eat properly again. i had a salad, at least. i never know how to budget for food properly, but i'm thankful that i don't *need* more money, i'm just not good at buying groceries



i think part of it is that i dislike having a communal kitchen so i end up ordering meals or buying pre-made stuff from the market. i would buy appliances to put in my room but i won't be able to take them with me when i move and my flatmates have no use for them (since they use the kitchen)



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